So two days after I changed my raltionship status on FB, I get a message from a mutal friend asking me to go to a concert with him next Wednesday. I said sure, why should I sit around feeling sorry for myself. The next day I get a message from another mutual friend asking me to dinner this past Friday night, Oh why not. We did dinner and a movie. Had a good time. But again just not feeling it. What is wrong with me that I need to be so picky? Part of the problem was I kept thinking, he's not the last one. Why I torture myself is beyond me. But seriously, why can't I find a normal guy? One who isn't all clingy and has co dependency issues. Isn't it normally the women who are like that? Ugh. If I hear this whinny bs again, i'm gonna lose it. And why can't I find a perfect guy for me. He doesn't have to be perfect, just perfect for me. A good kisser, makes me laugh, tells me how much he cares, but not 24/7. Ugh..seriously why can't men grow some balls. This is getting really old.
I decided I am not jumping into another relationship. Especially seeing as I am just not finding the right guy. I tend to jump into it hoping my feelings will change, then they don't and i;m stuck or I just cut and run. So i;m playing the field. I had more fun doing that before. Not attachments, no feelings, no worries. So much simplier that way.
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