freaking out again..

So tonight I have an awesome date with and awesome person.  Someone who has come at a complete surprise.

So i've been having a lot of luck on a particular dating site.  Talked to several people, not a particular one grabbing my attention, but I was trying to be optimistic.  Then out of no where comes a message, just a hi how ya doing.  And from there it began.  We have emailed, texted and talked everyday. So tonight we are meeting for the first time.  And I am freaking out.  More so because i'm afraid I won't meet his expectations.  And he the same about me.  He is someone who I have always thought I wanted in a guy but I tend to settle for less because i'm afraid I could not live up to their expectations.   I havent felt like this, if ever.  I have completely let my guard down and I never do that, at least not at first.  I'm to the point that I'm just going to take the chance and let it be.  I've been hurt before and lived thru it, I can handle it.  But something about him makes it so much easier.  He makes me feel so special and like i'm the only one in the world.  But my insecurities hold me back at times.  He's foreign,well educated,and is doing very well for himself financially from what I can tell.  Usually poor guys don't drive an Audi. Never been married and no kids, so that's a definite plus.  So no baggage. 

I have such high hopes for this that it scares me.